I HATE NEEDLES

yesterday,aku nadai xam ann..da night b4,ku ssasak sall bahu ku slalu sakit..so ku suruh bbh ku bwa ku khsptl..x sna,jumpa dr. tulang..y asruh xray..so,aku xray..and resultnya nada papa yg patah or anything..x kan.,dr. atue suruh AMBIL DARAH..meaning,INJECTIONN!!!i hate needle.butt,since kemarin ramai urg ambil drh,tukar keari ani..so,kme kehsptl lah tdy..ambil darah..babah danani aku..jht lge tue ia sl ia suruh abiskan darah ku..huhu..3 butul skalinya kana isi ngan darah ku..aha..but i didnt have the chance to look at my blood sal ku tkut sudah..aha..bda x aa..da vampire isap darah ku sampai 3 butul..huhu..ada complication lge tue..urat ku tlampau nipis,yath pyh ya kn 'suck' blood ku tdy..aha..nseb nda sakit..mun sakit,ku tandang th x udh 'blood sucker' ahh

odd one out

okay..i dont mind really..but im just sad dat im always being left out..kamu okay lahh..banyak kawan..yang aku ane,mana da urg mau bekawan sama aku..ntah lah..aku bukannya ambung..just dat aku nada self confidence..aku takut lau kana tinggalkan alone with someone..takut nada crita and takut ya bureng sama aku..and i do care what people might think of me..gila uhh..??i noe..well,dats me..and no one will noe cuz i wont let anyone noe dat i have a blog..ahha..i just like to write but i wanna keep my apa namanya,article yg ku write ane,silence untill the right time comes..soo..yeah..and aku sadeh..pasal kan.,i think alot about people's feelings and less of mine..but i noe im wrong cuz aku slalu sakitkn ati urg and not knowing it..heh..im just being lame..mengadu tanpa sebe..tapi nada jua urg yg kan baca and confort aku..lau da pun,urg yg kesian aja..aha..lol..minta kesian banar aku ani bnr th..aha..and oh yah,i came up with a reason why people jadi emo..ahah..

well,for the real reason,not for the hair styles,the titles,what emo can do to their names and pangkat to everyone else,but,for me lah,because of maybe that their friends nda dulikan ia..slalu kana tinggal kan..u noe,macam,ia sasak sal no one understands him/her..his/her life udh kusut bcos he/she thinks that no one loves them..so,they hurt them self bcoz itll make them fell better and it can cover the pain they felt inside..

i dont noe bout the other emos,but not labeling my self as one, i felt that way..but yet,people make fun of me feeling the way i feel..but not 100% lah like i explain..but,my friends are always there for me..but they rather think of their own stuff..but i dont blame them..who m i to them kann??ntah lahh..nda baik ey aku ne..ada x durang tulun aku..nda ku sadar..

tapi aku sadih lah,whenever it comes to me,every one da alasan tersendiri..nda pa lahh..
all i want to do right now is to study hard,aim high and dapatkan scholarship..and leave everything behind..no one will cry pon f im going..lol..sigh..my life..MENGADU SAHAJA AKU INI..BIDA..

true friends??do they exists??banyak crita jua aku ani

today

so today,i think i alredy know bout something..im no longer in a relationship..haha..sanag ati ku to settle that part,.but i dont noe his side of the story,.aha..and yeah,.aku ciuk lah ari ini..mulamula,aku tusen,pastue ke library..pastue balik..drumah ku mau relive the day of zaman duludulu..makan nasi campur talur and kicap..becalie la ku ma adi ku d dapur..and msa bys lunch,aku marahi adi ku suruh ia mandi and tapi ia nda mau..and kami kelaie lah bisingbising..den,aku tdo kajap masa ia mandi..pastue aku lagi ey kana marah sal nda mau bangun..patue kan,kame balek lagi ke library,.jumpa c nish and mirah sana..and apis and cznya..and veron,zul and ayen,.kame 'blajar' lah dcna..ciuk..x tyme balek,durang czn c apis sama ada dys one guy aku nda tau namanya,bepanat,,macm jackass jua..ciuk lah..and calie..kame bemain..andand,masa durang balek,kame ke dkt pagar yg arah air atu,,and kame main kapalkapal..ciuk..becalie kami..sayang aku nada gambar that moment,,sibuk bemain pnya pasal,,

wat am i thinking??

okay..so im really bored right now and i want to write..but the thing is,i have no idea what to right..im all out of ideas right now..but i want to share this one thing with you..i dont know how to say this but i felt empty inside..u noe what i mean??its like,i dont know who i love right now..i mean i noe who,like my parents..what i mean is that,other than them and my families and friends,i dont have that one special person..sigh..i noee..but i really need someone to talk to..someone new..someone who have no idea how my life is..i just want to share everything happened in my life to one particular person and only one person..but,unfortunately i have no one..but what if i have??would i tell him everything happen or going in my life??huhu..i just want someone to know what i did to every single person that i noe..or trying to do..oh well,its my life.im not pretty and beautiful and easy-going kindda person..so i dont have lots of friends..even my friends do have other friends and i am in their 'when-im-bored-i'll-called-them' list..or maybe worst,not being in a list at all..i just hope that i can find that person..my one opposite bestfriend that i dont have any issues with,like he is not one of my bestfriend's crush or ex or anything..just a new person that my friends have never know him before..
my english is a little off right now cos i cant think straight lately..i dont know why thoo..i like,get mad easily over such a small matter..and i sulk alot nowadays..
and one more,u noe its hard to be the odd one out..u noe,like in a group of five more in odd,the others are in pairs while i just stayin half a pair if u noe what i mean..im alone..im being left out in amy events or talks is hard..but i dont mind tho..do i??nda pa lahh..f ku jdy the one durang cari tyme nada papa kan dbuat pun or maybe nada kawan,tak kisah jugaa..but just so u noe,im not thrill about that..

end

ahh??

okay..so today is my average day..woke up around eight..watch tv,and take a bath..helping my mom and yadayadayada..later on, i sat in front of the laptop and ask a friend where to listen to musics online..so he recomend me to visit purevolume,which i have forgotten about..so,i went there and just trying to listen to any songs from random bands..and yeah,i do discover new bands that i love to listen to their beats and musics..like,kelsey and the chaos,i am ghost,deadmaya(from other website),'love,she wrote',phone calls from home and some which i mostly have forgotten by now..wawa..DONT cek out these bands..i wanna be the only one to noe bout themm..ahah..kidding..feel free to cek them out..

my first??

im totally bored so ill just write wat ever okay..feel free to read my craps..