odd one out

okay..i dont mind really..but im just sad dat im always being left out..kamu okay lahh..banyak kawan..yang aku ane,mana da urg mau bekawan sama aku..ntah lah..aku bukannya ambung..just dat aku nada self confidence..aku takut lau kana tinggalkan alone with someone..takut nada crita and takut ya bureng sama aku..and i do care what people might think of me..gila uhh..??i noe..well,dats me..and no one will noe cuz i wont let anyone noe dat i have a blog..ahha..i just like to write but i wanna keep my apa namanya,article yg ku write ane,silence untill the right time comes..soo..yeah..and aku sadeh..pasal kan.,i think alot about people's feelings and less of mine..but i noe im wrong cuz aku slalu sakitkn ati urg and not knowing it..heh..im just being lame..mengadu tanpa sebe..tapi nada jua urg yg kan baca and confort aku..lau da pun,urg yg kesian aja..aha..lol..minta kesian banar aku ani bnr th..aha..and oh yah,i came up with a reason why people jadi emo..ahah..

well,for the real reason,not for the hair styles,the titles,what emo can do to their names and pangkat to everyone else,but,for me lah,because of maybe that their friends nda dulikan ia..slalu kana tinggal kan..u noe,macam,ia sasak sal no one understands him/her..his/her life udh kusut bcos he/she thinks that no one loves them..so,they hurt them self bcoz itll make them fell better and it can cover the pain they felt inside..

i dont noe bout the other emos,but not labeling my self as one, i felt that way..but yet,people make fun of me feeling the way i feel..but not 100% lah like i explain..but,my friends are always there for me..but they rather think of their own stuff..but i dont blame them..who m i to them kann??ntah lahh..nda baik ey aku ne..ada x durang tulun aku..nda ku sadar..

tapi aku sadih lah,whenever it comes to me,every one da alasan tersendiri..nda pa lahh..
all i want to do right now is to study hard,aim high and dapatkan scholarship..and leave everything behind..no one will cry pon f im going..lol..sigh..my life..MENGADU SAHAJA AKU INI..BIDA..

true friends??do they exists??banyak crita jua aku ani